Orginally posted by Pebbly:

hello. I have a problem pls advice

I recently feel like avoiding my boyfriend because its awkward around him nowadays. I'm not being choosy or selfish (im so sorry if i sounds like it) but often i treat him meals and stuff. Isn't it weird? really sorry for being selfish but this is not what i was expecting. When we went to clubbing together with our group of friends, i caught him dance with other girls too but when i dance with some random guys, he scold me. And when the time comes when i finally had it with him, he gave me some stern warning that i will regret it if i broke up with him. I'm really scared. Even my friends asked me to not to do this and to continue on having a relationship with him. They asked me to endure a few months with him till he get bored of me or something but i cant wait that long. pls to the girls, how u break up with such a aggresive guy?

i really cant take it anymore. pls i really need help i do anything





Behind the facade of an aggressive man, lies a minaiture guy afraid of being hurt. Albeit he could have mask himself with the scent of aggressiveness that might allow him to score a win in a bar brawl, but he could muster no weapon against the intention of his woman desiring to leave him.

The thought of him being unable to keep his woman is almost a bruise to his raw ego - complete helplessness. This is a classic situation faced by many guys - the difference is that different people have different way of coping with it. An animalistic or 'lower level' way of managing it is to resort to the same sort of shield he exude to the world and shaped it as a threat to retain his 'partner'.

Love is emancipation and it cannot be contained by fist or anger.

The more he tries to work his strength, the further Love eludes from him.

You will eventually leave him, so what's the wait for?

Cheers

Labels: Aunt Agony

I have finished 2/3 of my academic race and thankfully, a break until end Jan next year.

Lots of stuff to do, especially reading.

I promised myself to go through the writings of Nichiren Daishonin during this term break. If I can go through at least 40 letters (which is a fifth of his entire writing) - that would fulfil my religious objective for this term break.

Next I need to catch up on my philosophical pursuit and to work on CloUdiSm. The crazy thing is that the more things I learn, the more dumbass I feel. This has become an addiction: I have this insatiable hunger for knowledge - the more I gorge myself with it, the less satisfied I feel. The less satisfied I feel, the more I will gorge myself. (Freaking SM).

I also promise myself to learn about value investing.

For dance - self work on techniques and if got time, I wanna go class!

P.S: And it's time to initiate my search for a more-related job. Must constantly remind myself that I cannot stay in SH all my life.

Cheers

Labels: General

People tend to take things a lot harder as they grow older.

Start to realize that people around me are showing signs of acute (I certainly hope it isn't chronic) clinical depression. Where are the days where emo days are gone after a couple of meaningful dialogues and chilling out - even when we were once poor students with little luxury of life and have to resort to old school style communication?

In the present world we lived in: we have total mobility in communication - MSN, Facebook, mobile, HSPA+ etc. Previously, I only had a freaking pager that could only allow me 1 minute to alpha numeric on public phones before it cuts me off entirely.

Ironically, although we are more interconnected now, but strangely, the quality of our communication deteriorates. The prospect of this interconnectivity actually makes us less 'connected' with one another on a grander scale and it's just so ironic.

Maybe people are depressed not because they are not connected with one another - but because the quality of our support is weakening. Psychologically, somehow, we are much weaker than when we first begin, even though the rest of our body matured into full-blown adults. We came into society with hopes and dreams of our own bright future, only to be dulled by the soot of our drudgery circumstances, which are evidences of our poor grasping and learning in our own personal life developments.

In life, our primary perceived support are also gelded by the 'busy' reality of life. We realized we have less time for one another. And unfortunately, it's not because we are so caught up with our own problems, but because we are now intensively focus on gaining material wealth and accumulating surplus, at the expense of our own emotional, mental and spiritual wealth.

We have more, but we are not as happy.

In love, we used to date people just for the fun of it because we are able to let go things better. As we grow older, we begin to insist that love must run the way we want it to be and if it doesn't, we learn to cling onto love that mask itself as karmic relationship, thinking that he/she must be 'the one'.

People always asked me 'Yun, help to see if he/she is the one?'

Who the hell is 'The One?'

What is 'The One?'

The One can eat or not?

The only one I know is Jet Li and therefore nobody else is The One other than him. Bona Fide.



Nobody, even I, can tell you who 'The One' is - but certainly you and me can tell who is definitely NOT.

The only problem in the latter is convincing yourself.

“One doesn’t discover new lands without losing sight of the shore.”
- Andre Gide

Labels: General

At first glance when Karen posted to me, I thought she was trying to tell me that she was pregnant.

Then I realized it was a little too far fetched

After proper analysis, I finally understood.

"AH Karen, next time when you buy Macdonald and is still hungry, please don't eat the brown paper bag that comes with it. It is meant to be a carrier, NOT a supplementary diet for your extra value meal. See la, eat liao puke all the shit."

P.S: Actually she is talking about my title. For her effort in drawing, I must blog it. ROFLMAO!

Labels: Wtf

Had never battled so many instances of flashfloods gushing out from the eyes of others. So many things just happened. Totally deranged.

But I was glad that I made certain choices in life. You know... like placed on a spiritual test to choose between compassion and production... between good friend and work. Gawd, it was kinda difficult because I had just finished a massive event and there are much backlog waiting for me to clear (on top of all the urgent stuff). And the thing is that my sort of shit is the kind of shit that if I don't clear them regularly, it just piles up - nobody could help me to clear them anyway.

When I received the emergency button, I just paused for a moment. Yes I actually paused.

Then I started reasoning with myself.

"FUCK! Not like SH is paying you millions of dollars! Not like that additional 5 hours of work will rake in million of lines for the company. That 5 hours probably won't even stir a shit... but it will make tremedous difference to someone else."

My choice becomes apparent.

Labels: General

Interesting to see how Progressed Sun triggers the entire T-square, involving 4th, 11th and 7th house (with Venus, Moon and Uranus).

8 years ago when progressed Moon triggered the exact T-square, by conjunction of progressed Moon with Uranus at hard aspect - it wasn't easy as well.

What a realization!

Labels: General

人一定会东山再起

Same goes for the blog.

New skin.

New life.

New beginning.

P.S: Business as usual from today onwards.

Labels: General